The Root of All Evil

I read somewhere that money is the root of all evil. There is a certain truth to that, but I think that any resource that is used as either a means to punish and/or to reward one for specific behavior(s) can be classified that way too. You could replace money with food, love, sex, etc. and I believe that you could reach the same conclusion.

Since I chose money, I'll stick with it. Money was always a behavior modification tool in my family. Money was used to manipulate us to follow certain paths in life. If we didn't follow that path, then it would either be withheld or we'd be made to feel guilty about not following that path.

Because of this, I never learned how to view money as a resource. It was never something that was a conveyance. It was either a reward or a punishment. As a result, I never could successfully earn it to sufficient degree that I could support myself. Because I was codependent and still am, I never had the confidence that it took in order to use my mind to use it that way. I was always afraid that I'd fail at it. I often did fail. I struggle to this day with this. I feel relieved that I'm aware of this viewpoint, and I'm beginning to change my view of money. Hopefully, I'll improve my ability to find the financial resources to accomplish what I need to in the future to the point that I'll be able to support myself.